Living a life purpose

Joy and suffering are two words we rarely expect to find together. When life is difficult, our natural response is often to ask, “Why is this happening?” We may believe that joy can only return when our circumstances improve and the painful season comes to an end. However, Scripture presents us with a very different understanding of joy. Biblical joy is not dependent on everything going well. It is rooted in the assurance that God is present, faithful and working through every part of our lives. Joy is not the absence of suffering. It is the presence of God. “Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” James 1:2–3 (NIV) A different perspective on trials James does not tell us that suffering itself is enjoyable. He does not ask us to pretend that pa...

Joy is something we all long for, yet so often we look for it in the wrong places. We think it will come when life gets easier, when our prayers are answered, when our circumstances improve or when everything finally falls into place. But Psalm 100 points us towards a different path. It teaches us that the gateway to joy is gratitude. “Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise; give thanks to Him and praise His name.” Psalm 100:4 A grateful heart sees life differently. Gratitude does not deny the reality of pain, disappointment or difficulty, but it changes the way we walk through them. Enter through the door of gratitude Psalm 100:4 invites us to enter God’s gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise. Notice the order: before we enter His courts, we first pass through the gateway of thanksgiving. Gratitude is the doorway into God’s presence. Praise flows naturall...

Luke 8:4–15 Recently, during my quiet time, God asked me a question that I haven't been able to shake: What kind of soil is your heart today? As I read Jesus' Parable of the Sower in Luke 8, I realised He wasn't giving us a checklist to identify different types of people. He was inviting us to examine our own hearts. I've often thought about these four types of soil as though they describe different people, but this time I felt God asking me a much more personal question. What is the condition of your heart? The more I reflected, the more I realised something else. The true condition of my heart isn't revealed when life is easy, it is revealed when challenges come. It's easy to say I trust God when everything is going well. It's easy to worship when prayers are being answered and life is moving in the direction I had hoped. But pressure has a way of exposing what is really happening beneath the surface. Challenges reveal the condition of my hea...

Every new beginning reminds me that God is still writing my story. My life has moved in chapters. Some have been filled with joy, others with pain, and some have left me unsure of how I would ever move forward. But even when a chapter ends with tears, disappointment, or uncertainty, I remind myself that it is not the end. It is simply the beginning of something new unfolding in God’s hands. I am learning that God never wastes what I go through. What once felt like loss has often become the very place where new purpose has grown. What felt like brokenness has been reshaped into something more beautiful than I could have planned. Even the seasons of waiting have become the foundation of testimonies I did not see at the time. There is something deeply comforting in knowing that God is still at work in my life, even when things feel unclear or still. He has a way of opening new paths when doors close and turning delays into preparation for something greater. Nothing I walk thr...

Have You Ever Felt God Is Far Away? Have you ever prayed and felt like God didn’t answer—or even like He wasn’t there at all? We all go through seasons where God feels silent. His voice seems quiet, our prayers seem unanswered, and it’s easy to feel forgotten. Recognise your feelings Sometimes life feels overwhelming, and we wonder if God has left us to face it alone. David knew this feeling well. In Psalm 13:1–2, he cries: “How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever? How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and day after day have sorrow in my heart?” David doesn’t hide his frustration or doubt. He brings his raw, honest emotions to God. And here’s the beautiful truth: God welcomes our honesty. He’s not offended by our questions or doubts—He desires a real, genuine relationship with us. Shift from Despair to Trust David doesn’t stay in despair. Later in Psalm 13:5–6, he chooses trust over doubt: “But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing th...

Waiting isn’t wasted—it’s a sacred space where God is quietly at work. In life’s waiting seasons, whether for answers, breakthroughs, or clarity, God is shaping us, strengthening us, and preparing us for what lies ahead. God is at work while we wait As Isaiah 64:4 reminds us: "Since ancient times no one has heard, no ear has perceived, no eye has seen any God besides you, who acts on behalf of those who wait for him." Waiting is rarely easy. It can feel frustrating, heavy, or even discouraging. But the truth is this: waiting is not a punishment, nor is it pointless. Instead, it is a purposeful season where God draws us closer, moulds our character, and deepens our trust in Him. Learning patience in a fast-paced world In a world that demands instant results, God’s timing teaches us patience. He invites us to see the waiting room not as a place of delay, but as a classroom for the soul. Here, He does some of His most transformative work—quietly, steadily, and with perfect l...

On my morning walk I saw something that made me stop in my tracks. It was an amazing sight - a single rose thriving and flourishing in a thorn bush.  I stopped to take a picture and after I took the picture, God spoke to me. God said like that rose you will flourish in difficult times. Nothing can stop my plans for you - not unemployment, sickness or death. My plans for you can never be stopped by any external forces because I am the all powerful God.  Do not fear whatever circumstances you find yourself in because I have already won the battle. So arise,  thrive and flourish like that rose. You just have to believe and trust in my love, faithfulness, grace and goodness towards you. My daughter I have called you to a life of abundance. “But the godly will flourish like palm trees and grow strong like the cedars of Lebanon.” Psalms 92:12 NLT https://www.bible.com/116/psa.92.12.nlt

I had my surgery on 15th of February. It was a long day, which started at 6:45 am.  I got to the treatment Center at 6:45 am and was checking at the reception at 7:15 am. Titi and Ambreem drove me there and stayed with me until I was checked in. It was good to have company and someone to talk to. Emotionally I was calm because I was strong spiritually. I was not trying to control anything, I had handed everything over to God and let him be in control. He was in the driving seat and I was along for the ride. Knowing God was with me and in control was the reason I was so calm and not worried.  At 10 am I had to go to the breast clinic to get a wire put in my right Breast. The procedure was for about 30 minutes. I walked back to the treatment center. I think I sat down for over two hours before I was taken to the theatre at 12:20. Everyone was really nice and I got a chance to listen to Andrea Bocelli while I was going under. I came to at about 4:30 pm and everything went well. I...

I went in for my appointment at the breast clinic on Thursday 31 January to get the results of the second MRI scan and biopsy. Well, the doctor confirmed it was breast cancer because the primary source is the Breast. I will need to undergo surgery to remove the tumour in the breast and also some of my lymph nodes since it was infected.  I wasn’t expecting this even though I have been going through all these test it was still not real. I was hoping and believing the doctors will say it was all a mistake. This was not the report I was expecting because I was believing and trusting everything will be fine. I was hoping and believing nothing will be found. This is the report of the doctors and I will not fear it because I will only believe the report of the Lord which says I am healed, so I know I am healed. I will not fear nor be afraid of bad report because my faith is strong, my heart is confident and I am trusting in the Lord. Psalm 112: 7 In all is there still is cause to praise a...

Sometimes I tightly wrap my hand around things that will inevitably fade into dust, forgetting that my life belongs to the Lord, to begin and end as He ordains. He will be faithful to accomplish the plan he has for me. “The Lord will work out his plans for my life— for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for you made me. Psalms 138:8 NLT My life cannot be cut short before He allows. Although it may be hard to relinquish the illusion of control, once I do, I can begin to understand the reality of his protection. My life is not my own, it belongs to God and I can’t control it nor can I control what happens. I am confident that my Lord is with me, He is watching over me, He is protecting me, He provides for me, and He directs my path. And because God is with me in all I do I will not be afraid, I will not be moved and I will continue to trust because I know God never makes a mistake.

16th January was my first day back at work after a short break. It was good to be back and to be busy again but I had to go in for another appointment. I wish my first day back was like another normal day but the appointment was a reminder that my journey is different now. I arrived at the Breast clinic at 10:45AM for my 11:00AM appointment with Aunty Remi. The appointment was for ultrasound and biopsy on both breast as they are still trying to find primary source. This is the second time I will undergo this painful procedure but I was very glad someone was with me this time because I was on my own at the first biopsy and felt alone. I felt like a paint canvas because during the ultrasound because the radiologist marked areas of my breast with a marker. It was very funny and hilarious. The biopsy was longer than the first time and very painful. Samples were taken from both breast and a marker, a small metal clip was placed in the left breast where the biopsy samples were taken. This wa...

Today Thursday, 10 January 2019 at 9:30, I have to go in to get the results of the test. I plan to take my friend Sharon with me because I needed the support of someone. This could be a cruciakl day and I am glad I will not be alone. It was not the news I was expecting to hear but I know God is in control. The CT scan and MRI scan were not conclusive so they are still not sure of where the source of the cancer is. The only thing the MRI scan showed was that there were two at spot, one on each breast and they need to do a biopsy to see if it is cancer. Until this is determined, they will not know the course of treatment I need to undergo. As a result,  I have to go in for another CT scan on Monday 14th January at 11:00AM and another biopsy on Wednesday 16th of January at 14:15 PM. Oh joy, I was not happy, why was it proving difficult to find the primary source. More test, I hate test. I was a bit disappointed and emotional after the appointment. I cried because I wanted answers and ...

Another day and another appointment today is an MRI appointment I went to church and taught the kids in Discovery Kids. This helped me take my mind of things, it helped me feel normal and not like someone with something looming on my mind. I had to let Bev know what was going on because I knew I will be off Discovery Kids for a while. Sharon went with me and it was great to have company. The procedure was for almost an hour. The experience was out of this world - noisy and too much vibration. I was happy when it was all over. To be honest, I am a bit apprehensive and anxious at each appointment but I choose to not let fear of the unknown paralyse me or worry as I wait for the result. My God is in control regardless, I will not be troubled or afraid for I have the wonderful gift from God - His promises and peace which is my weapon against worry and fear. His peace is completely different than the world’s peace. The world’s peace is tied to circumstances, but God’s peace is eternal and f...

Only by trusting in what I did for you on the cross will you be whole and perfect in My sight. It is only by My grace that you receive My free gift, an eternal home where sorrow and mourning will disappear. You have a priceless inheritance that can never be destroyed. My child, when they whipped Me, you were healed. When I dragged the cross up the hill to Calvary, I carried the weight of your cancer on My back. When they nailed Me to the cross, I defeated your cancer and carried it with Me to the grave. I died to save the world, but I would have done it just for you. Lord, thank you that my faith alone makes me righteous in Your sight! My life is no longer mortal and temporal, but eternal and forever. The enemy and his cancer cannot touch my soul or take away my life in you. You conquered him at Calvary and took away the sting of death. You died so I could live. Thank you that I am safe forever in your hands. “This gospel unveils a continual revelation of God’s righteousness—a perfect ...

I cried today, don’t know why but I think it is related to me receiving another appointment letter from the hospital for a nuclear medicine body scan. I don’t know what that is and I don’t know why I’ve been asked to do this. This morning I feel so overwhelmed so Lord, please help me. At this point I have had a mammogram and biopsy two times, so I am sick and tired of test. I just want things to start moving as I am determined to face this and be brave. You said I am healed and I believe that. I am already healed and I am just waiting for the physical manifestation of my healing 3 John 1:2 - Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your souls prosper I believe I am the righteousness of God and any situation that opposes God’s will for me has no choice but to obey and be obedient to God’s will for me. Cancer opposes God’s will for me so you Cancer you have no choice but to the obedient to God’s will for me which is I was made whole by the blood of Jes...