Living a life purpose

Every new beginning reminds me that God is still writing my story. My life has moved in chapters. Some have been filled with joy, others with pain, and some have left me unsure of how I would ever move forward. But even when a chapter ends with tears, disappointment, or uncertainty, I remind myself that it is not the end. It is simply the beginning of something new unfolding in God’s hands. I am learning that God never wastes what I go through. What once felt like loss has often become the very place where new purpose has grown. What felt like brokenness has been reshaped into something more beautiful than I could have planned. Even the seasons of waiting have become the foundation of testimonies I did not see at the time. There is something deeply comforting in knowing that God is still at work in my life, even when things feel unclear or still. He has a way of opening new paths when doors close and turning delays into preparation for something greater. Nothing I walk thr...

Sometimes we all need a gentle reminder of the kind of love that holds us, carries us, and never lets us go. God’s love isn’t like human love—changing with moods, moments, or circumstances. His love is constant, deep, and beyond anything our hearts can fully grasp. Today, I want to encourage you with a truth that has the power to calm fear, strengthen hope, and transform the way we see ourselves and others. God is love. It’s not just something He does—it is who He is. His love isn’t conditional or occasional. It doesn’t depend on our performance, our perfection, or our past. It is perfect, steady, and freely given. The only thing we must do is open our hearts to receive it. Because His love is perfect, it pushes out fear. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failing. Fear of not being enough. Fear of being rejected. All of these lose their power when we rest in the unfailing security of God’s love. And this love isn’t meant to stay just within us—it flows through us. We love others bec...

God’s Word is a gift that renews the mind. At the dead ends of life, in the darkness we never saw coming, His Word steps in like a bright light cutting through every shadow. From the very beginning, God’s voice has always made a way where there seemed to be no way. At the edge of the Red Sea, when the Israelites were trapped between deep waters and a relentless enemy, God spoke — and the sea opened. His voice carved a path through the impossible. “Your path led through the sea, your way through the mighty waters, though your footprints were not seen.” — Psalm 77:19 That is who God is. His Word doesn’t always explain every detail, but it always guides. It doesn’t always prevent the struggle, but it never leaves us to face it alone. Maybe today you’re standing at what looks like a dead end — hoping for a miracle, longing for direction. Don’t lose heart. The Word is still alive, and it still makes a way. Don’t lean on your own understanding. Open the Bible. Inside are promises that do not...

The present moment is not perfect, it is painful but I know God is present and this brings me comfort and encouragement. It Strengthens me to do what needs to be done and go through the day with courage “We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him. These are the people God chose, because that was his plan.” Romans 8:28 This I am confident God works - even though I cannot see it, He is busy behind the scenes working everything out God works for the good - Not for my pleasure or comfort but for my ultimate good God works for the good of those who love Him God works in all things - the good, the bad, the easy things or difficult things. He doesn’t make the plan as He goes along because nothing comes as a surprise to him and he is never out of control. “In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will,” Ephesians 1:11 ESV He works out everything in conformity...

Psalm 28:7 - The Lord is my strength and my impenetrable shield , my heart trust in, relies on and confidently leans on him, and I am helped therefore my heart greatly rejoices and with my song I will praise him. Thank you Lord for you are my strength and my shield that keeps me safe I will confidently rely on you so regardless of what is going on. I will rejoice and I will sing your praises because you deserve it. I thank you for keeping me safe, I thank you for being my strength, I thank you for all your promises and I will confidently lean on and trust in them because you are a God who never lies. I will rise above anxiety by giving you praise by saying positive things and confessing you word.

“No one will be able to stand against you as long as you live. For I will be with you as I was with Moses. I will not fail you or abandon you.” Joshua 1:5 NLT  All your life, no one will be able to hold out against you. In the same way I was with Moses, I’ll be with you, Temi. I won’t give up on you; I won’t leave you. Joshua 1:5 MSG  My father, Papa, I thank you for your words. I speak it, trust it and believe it. I will keep it in my heart. I know that as long as I live and have your breath in me, no one or nothing can stand against me. Regardless of what is going on in my life or the journey I am currently on, no one and nothing can stand against me because your word says it and I believe it. You are always with me. You will not fail me You will not give up on me You will not abandon me You will not leave me. I will be strong and courageous My daughter all you have to do is trust me. All you have to do is to stay in the chariot with me (the journey). I will not quit on you ...

My second surgery was on Thursday, 21st March 2019. I thank God and I am so grateful that everything went well. I am so grateful that I am here today.  Ambreen came down from Stockport on Wednesday. She is such a dear. Surgery morning, Ambreen and I were out of the house by 6:50pm and we got to the treatment center on time. I was an expert at this since I have been through this before. Ambreen stayed with me until I was checked in at 7:20am. Once in the treatment center the surgeon and anaesthetist came round. Today I was the first person in theatre. Putting me to sleep this time was painful because the anaesthetist couldn’t find my vein but finally he did. I came into the recovery room around 11:00am and I was back home by 2:00pm. I want to thank you for your word to me, which was that before this day came you knew about it, you knew what was going to happen, and that you are in control. This gave me the assurance I needed so I was not afraid. Father your daughter was brave and co...

Everything that has been going on in my life as made me question how I react to circumstances.  I have a choice to make - fear or my trust and faith in God. I choose my trust and faith in God because that is the only thing that will give me peace.  So Temi, when you face the unknown  You must never allow my circumstances to get bigger than my God.  You must trust God, the God that is always on time.  You must not panic but instead you will buckle down and trust what you know to be true of God

 Wednesday, 6 March 2019 is the D-Day. Today is the day to get the pathology report following my surgery on 15 February 2019. I was not worried about it because I believe God has everything in control and everything will go well and will be fine. I was told I will need another surgery. Apparently, the border or margin of the normal breast tissue removed around the cancer cells during the first surgery came back positive with pre-invasive cancer cells so that meant I would need to have another surgery to remove these. There are two areas where there were cancer cells one is 29 mm and the other was 19mm from the point where the cancer was removed. This blew me away, I was shocked because this wasn’t what I was expecting and my thoughts were all over the place. Another surgery was a setback - to my recovery and plans.  I was also told that 15 Lymph nodes were removed during the first surgery and six came back positive with cancer so as a result I would need to undergo chemotherap...

Yesterday was not a good day for me. I was in so much pain and I was feeling sorry for myself. It was good to have Patience come round, just having someone to talk to really helped.  Today is another day and I choose to live this day with joy and thanksgiving. I refuse to feel sorry for myself or to focus on the pain. I am joint heir with Christ so that means I can claim every benefit and blessing Christ purchased for me at the cross. So today I choose peace, today I choose joy, today I choose to be grateful for all God has done for me. God I start today with you and I pray that your healing powers flow within me. I pray that you will remove every pain and ache in Jesus name. I refuse to let my mind wander to thoughts that are not from you. I choose to fill my mind with your words and with your promises. I choose to stay embraced in your loving arms.

I had my surgery on 15th of February. It was a long day, which started at 6:45 am.  I got to the treatment Center at 6:45 am and was checking at the reception at 7:15 am. Titi and Ambreem drove me there and stayed with me until I was checked in. It was good to have company and someone to talk to. Emotionally I was calm because I was strong spiritually. I was not trying to control anything, I had handed everything over to God and let him be in control. He was in the driving seat and I was along for the ride. Knowing God was with me and in control was the reason I was so calm and not worried.  At 10 am I had to go to the breast clinic to get a wire put in my right Breast. The procedure was for about 30 minutes. I walked back to the treatment center. I think I sat down for over two hours before I was taken to the theatre at 12:20. Everyone was really nice and I got a chance to listen to Andrea Bocelli while I was going under. I came to at about 4:30 pm and everything went well. I...

I went in for my appointment at the breast clinic on Thursday 31 January to get the results of the second MRI scan and biopsy. Well, the doctor confirmed it was breast cancer because the primary source is the Breast. I will need to undergo surgery to remove the tumour in the breast and also some of my lymph nodes since it was infected.  I wasn’t expecting this even though I have been going through all these test it was still not real. I was hoping and believing the doctors will say it was all a mistake. This was not the report I was expecting because I was believing and trusting everything will be fine. I was hoping and believing nothing will be found. This is the report of the doctors and I will not fear it because I will only believe the report of the Lord which says I am healed, so I know I am healed. I will not fear nor be afraid of bad report because my faith is strong, my heart is confident and I am trusting in the Lord. Psalm 112: 7 In all is there still is cause to praise a...

Sometimes I tightly wrap my hand around things that will inevitably fade into dust, forgetting that my life belongs to the Lord, to begin and end as He ordains. He will be faithful to accomplish the plan he has for me. “The Lord will work out his plans for my life— for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for you made me. Psalms 138:8 NLT My life cannot be cut short before He allows. Although it may be hard to relinquish the illusion of control, once I do, I can begin to understand the reality of his protection. My life is not my own, it belongs to God and I can’t control it nor can I control what happens. I am confident that my Lord is with me, He is watching over me, He is protecting me, He provides for me, and He directs my path. And because God is with me in all I do I will not be afraid, I will not be moved and I will continue to trust because I know God never makes a mistake.

Today Thursday, 10 January 2019 at 9:30, I have to go in to get the results of the test. I plan to take my friend Sharon with me because I needed the support of someone. This could be a cruciakl day and I am glad I will not be alone. It was not the news I was expecting to hear but I know God is in control. The CT scan and MRI scan were not conclusive so they are still not sure of where the source of the cancer is. The only thing the MRI scan showed was that there were two at spot, one on each breast and they need to do a biopsy to see if it is cancer. Until this is determined, they will not know the course of treatment I need to undergo. As a result,  I have to go in for another CT scan on Monday 14th January at 11:00AM and another biopsy on Wednesday 16th of January at 14:15 PM. Oh joy, I was not happy, why was it proving difficult to find the primary source. More test, I hate test. I was a bit disappointed and emotional after the appointment. I cried because I wanted answers and ...

 I came across this song and the lyrics reminded me that God is with me and he will take me through this battle Thank God for Tasha Cobbs Leonard You know my name Oh how you comfort me Oh how you counsel me It still amazes me that I am your own Oh how you walk with me Oh how you talk with me Oh how you tell me that I am your own God you know me so I trust you with my life No fire can burn me No battle can turn me No mountain can stop me Cause you hold my hand I am walking in your victory cause your power is within me No giant can defeat me because you always hold my hand I don’t have to be afraid because you hold my hand ©Tasha Cobbs Leonard

My child, I have power and authority over your path to wellness. I have many ways to heal, but My methods and timing are not always predictable. I can heal through physicians, surgeons, renewed mindsets, common sense, or a direct touch from My Spirit. However healing comes, it’s never up to you to decide how or when. I alone am the One who heals. I give you wise physicians that prescribe medications to destroy mutated cells, kill harmful organisms, and regulate body systems. My surgeons remove diseased tissues and repair defective organs. At anytime, I can bypass these natural methods and heal you supernaturally through the power of My Spirit. However you receive healing, there is no second class outcome. Being healed miraculously is no more spiritual than being healed medically. Healing by any method is a blessing from Me, the God who heals. Child, you are dependent on Me for your every breath. Never let your trust move subtly to the doctors, their drugs, or your own strength instead ...

Only by trusting in what I did for you on the cross will you be whole and perfect in My sight. It is only by My grace that you receive My free gift, an eternal home where sorrow and mourning will disappear. You have a priceless inheritance that can never be destroyed. My child, when they whipped Me, you were healed. When I dragged the cross up the hill to Calvary, I carried the weight of your cancer on My back. When they nailed Me to the cross, I defeated your cancer and carried it with Me to the grave. I died to save the world, but I would have done it just for you. Lord, thank you that my faith alone makes me righteous in Your sight! My life is no longer mortal and temporal, but eternal and forever. The enemy and his cancer cannot touch my soul or take away my life in you. You conquered him at Calvary and took away the sting of death. You died so I could live. Thank you that I am safe forever in your hands. “This gospel unveils a continual revelation of God’s righteousness—a perfect ...

My will! My will for you my daughter is a healthy body. A healthy body is a reflection of My goodness and My abundant love for you. I grieve over your brokenness, and I want you to be completely whole. Sickness and death were never part of My original plan. I created and called My creation good. When sin and sickness entered the world, My beautiful creation fell into decay. But I came to restore everything the enemy stole from you! I came to destroy the works of the devil and heal your diseases by the stripes on My back.

I cried today, don’t know why but I think it is related to me receiving another appointment letter from the hospital for a nuclear medicine body scan. I don’t know what that is and I don’t know why I’ve been asked to do this. This morning I feel so overwhelmed so Lord, please help me. At this point I have had a mammogram and biopsy two times, so I am sick and tired of test. I just want things to start moving as I am determined to face this and be brave. You said I am healed and I believe that. I am already healed and I am just waiting for the physical manifestation of my healing 3 John 1:2 - Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your souls prosper I believe I am the righteousness of God and any situation that opposes God’s will for me has no choice but to obey and be obedient to God’s will for me. Cancer opposes God’s will for me so you Cancer you have no choice but to the obedient to God’s will for me which is I was made whole by the blood of Jes...

I look back on my life and wonder why things just seems to be one battle after another. I lost my mum and then my dad. The loss of my dad was so unexpected that it broke me. Three weeks later I gave birth to my son, which was traumatic. I had an emergency caesarean because he was not breathing and the prognosis from the doctors was bleak because the loss of oxygen to his brain. I sank into depression and self-pity. I couldn’t understand why as God who claims to love me will allow these things to happen to me. I was not yet over the shock of my father’s death, now I was facing the loss of my new born son. I was so disappointed and I lost faith in God. Even in my loneliness and depression I knew he was with me. In the end, I realised there was nobody else to turn to but to turn to God. It was a hard battle but I had to rely and trust in God. To God be the glory, my son survived against all odds and he is soon going to be 18 years. It has not been easy but God has been with us ...