Living a life purpose

Mum, you left this world 26 years ago to be with the Lord but to me it seems like yesterday. In my life, there is a wound,  it hurts so bad and it always appears when I am sad. No matter what I do it won't go away it's in my heart where it will always stay. It appeared the day you left this world. The day you left this world there was a big gap in my life, I lost you my mum, who cared for and loved me. The day you left this world, I was no longer your little girl; I had to grow up fast. The day you left this world; I had to grow up without you being there to turn to. The day you left this world; I lost my confidant, my encourager and teacher. The day you left this world; I lost my helper who was always there to help solve my problems. The day you left this world; I had no mum to share and celebrate important milestones in my life with. Mum, I will always remember your strength. You were a pillar of strength even until the end. Fighting all life's battles, knowin...

I was in an unhappy marriage that was plagued by infidelity and emotional abuse. I stayed in it because I read in the bible that God hates divorce. For years I endured the anger, the hurt, the pain and guilt that I was not measuring up to God’s standards. The continued adulterous relation led to the breakdown of my marriage and eventually to the dreaded “D” word – DIVORCE. I didn’t have a plan and I didn’t know how I would recover from the betrayal and the hurt. I felt abandoned by God because I was now a divorcee. I couldn’t walk into a room without feeling like every eyes were on me, without feeling judged. The mistakes of my failed marriage led to guilt and I allowed the labels the world placed on me define me for a long time. Rehearsing the hurt, the betrayal and living with it every day was chipping at my faith and making me skeptical of others even when they were attempting to help. I was trapped in my past and it was holding me captive. I had to make a choice: wallow in the ...