Living a life purpose

Just what I needed to hear. A whisper from God My daughter you are never alone, don’t allow your feelings to trick you. Don’t  trust your feelings that always changes, trust my words to you that is true and never changes. I am holding you by my victorious right hand. I am guiding you through and moving you towards victory. You just have to be brave and courageous.

My son Dara is 20 years today. As I look back today, my heart is so full of joy and hope because I know the Lord has great plans for him. Dear Father, thank You for this special day that You chose to be the birthday of this my dear and special child. Lord You scheduled every day of his life from before he was born and have watched over him, and Lord how I rejoice to see him growing up day by day and reaching another milestone in his young life.  Watch over him I pray and look down on him with Your love and favour. Lord, I ask that as he faces a new year with new opportunities and challenges that You would enable him to grow in wisdom and favour with God and men as he learns to trust in You Lord, with each passing day. I pray for blessings and joy over Dara. You knew everything about him before his birth and You have a plan of prosperity and hope for his life! Let him feel confident and ready for the year ahead knowing that You have an order to his steps and a purpose for his lif...

The present moment is not perfect, it is painful but I know God is present and this brings me comfort and encouragement. It Strengthens me to do what needs to be done and go through the day with courage “We know that in everything God works for the good of those who love him. These are the people God chose, because that was his plan.” Romans 8:28 This I am confident God works - even though I cannot see it, He is busy behind the scenes working everything out God works for the good - Not for my pleasure or comfort but for my ultimate good God works for the good of those who love Him God works in all things - the good, the bad, the easy things or difficult things. He doesn’t make the plan as He goes along because nothing comes as a surprise to him and he is never out of control. “In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will,” Ephesians 1:11 ESV He works out everything in conformity...

Psalm 28:7 - The Lord is my strength and my impenetrable shield , my heart trust in, relies on and confidently leans on him, and I am helped therefore my heart greatly rejoices and with my song I will praise him. Thank you Lord for you are my strength and my shield that keeps me safe I will confidently rely on you so regardless of what is going on. I will rejoice and I will sing your praises because you deserve it. I thank you for keeping me safe, I thank you for being my strength, I thank you for all your promises and I will confidently lean on and trust in them because you are a God who never lies. I will rise above anxiety by giving you praise by saying positive things and confessing you word.

“No one will be able to stand against you as long as you live. For I will be with you as I was with Moses. I will not fail you or abandon you.” Joshua 1:5 NLT  All your life, no one will be able to hold out against you. In the same way I was with Moses, I’ll be with you, Temi. I won’t give up on you; I won’t leave you. Joshua 1:5 MSG  My father, Papa, I thank you for your words. I speak it, trust it and believe it. I will keep it in my heart. I know that as long as I live and have your breath in me, no one or nothing can stand against me. Regardless of what is going on in my life or the journey I am currently on, no one and nothing can stand against me because your word says it and I believe it. You are always with me. You will not fail me You will not give up on me You will not abandon me You will not leave me. I will be strong and courageous My daughter all you have to do is trust me. All you have to do is to stay in the chariot with me (the journey). I will not quit on you ...

My second surgery was on Thursday, 21st March 2019. I thank God and I am so grateful that everything went well. I am so grateful that I am here today.  Ambreen came down from Stockport on Wednesday. She is such a dear. Surgery morning, Ambreen and I were out of the house by 6:50pm and we got to the treatment center on time. I was an expert at this since I have been through this before. Ambreen stayed with me until I was checked in at 7:20am. Once in the treatment center the surgeon and anaesthetist came round. Today I was the first person in theatre. Putting me to sleep this time was painful because the anaesthetist couldn’t find my vein but finally he did. I came into the recovery room around 11:00am and I was back home by 2:00pm. I want to thank you for your word to me, which was that before this day came you knew about it, you knew what was going to happen, and that you are in control. This gave me the assurance I needed so I was not afraid. Father your daughter was brave and co...

“GOD ’s loyal love couldn’t have run out, his merciful love couldn’t have dried up. They’re created new every morning. How great your faithfulness! I’m sticking with GOD (I say it over and over). He’s all I’ve got left.” Lamentations 3:22-24 MSG  This powerful promise in His word offers peace to my heart in my current journey in life. He gives me great hope in the battles I face today. It is like a ray of light through the darkest night. For just as I am sure the sun comes up every morning, I can be confident that His mercies never end. His mercies are never based on how good I am, but only on his steadfast character. His compassion towards me is fresh every morning, and each day is a gift straight from his hands. I can trust his heart is for me. It will be easy to complain about everything than to offer God praise. But I choose to set my heart on the steadfast love of God, offering him praise for who He is and how He is at work in my life. I will remember God’s promise and choose ...

Everything that has been going on in my life as made me question how I react to circumstances.  I have a choice to make - fear or my trust and faith in God. I choose my trust and faith in God because that is the only thing that will give me peace.  So Temi, when you face the unknown  You must never allow my circumstances to get bigger than my God.  You must trust God, the God that is always on time.  You must not panic but instead you will buckle down and trust what you know to be true of God

 Wednesday, 6 March 2019 is the D-Day. Today is the day to get the pathology report following my surgery on 15 February 2019. I was not worried about it because I believe God has everything in control and everything will go well and will be fine. I was told I will need another surgery. Apparently, the border or margin of the normal breast tissue removed around the cancer cells during the first surgery came back positive with pre-invasive cancer cells so that meant I would need to have another surgery to remove these. There are two areas where there were cancer cells one is 29 mm and the other was 19mm from the point where the cancer was removed. This blew me away, I was shocked because this wasn’t what I was expecting and my thoughts were all over the place. Another surgery was a setback - to my recovery and plans.  I was also told that 15 Lymph nodes were removed during the first surgery and six came back positive with cancer so as a result I would need to undergo chemotherap...

This week has been a tough week. I have been in so much pain and I have been feeling sorry for myself thinking of how things were before and how things are now. I just want things to go back to normal to go back to how things were before. I feel so helpless, I feel so useless I don’t know if I have been thinking my identity to the things I do my job this in-activeness is making me feel so sorry for myself. But I’ll lord is so good he knew exactly what I needed to hear and exactly what you wanted to say to me so this morning I read a verse in Psalms 27 Verse 14 “Here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Don’t give up; don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting—for he will never disappoint you!” Psalms 27:14 TPT Temi my daughter, my beloved, do not give up, do not be impatient. Be entwined as one with me your Lord. Every detail of your life is continually woven together to fit into my perfect plan for your life....

Yesterday was not a good day for me. I was in so much pain and I was feeling sorry for myself. It was good to have Patience come round, just having someone to talk to really helped.  Today is another day and I choose to live this day with joy and thanksgiving. I refuse to feel sorry for myself or to focus on the pain. I am joint heir with Christ so that means I can claim every benefit and blessing Christ purchased for me at the cross. So today I choose peace, today I choose joy, today I choose to be grateful for all God has done for me. God I start today with you and I pray that your healing powers flow within me. I pray that you will remove every pain and ache in Jesus name. I refuse to let my mind wander to thoughts that are not from you. I choose to fill my mind with your words and with your promises. I choose to stay embraced in your loving arms.

This is Day 5 after surgery. I have not been able to write because I have been in so much pain. Yesterday was not a good day because I was in so much pain. I blame myself, I stopped taking ibuprofen because I was constipated so I’ve learned my lesson and back on ibuprofen. I believe today will be a better day. I am beginning to feel a bit like myself, a tired version of myself. I am trying to take things easy and not overdo it. A few things I don’t like in the recovery phase Tiredness, Dressing, Bathing I am not focusing on things I don’t like or find difficult, I am focusing on things I can do and thanking God for everything.  I am not focusing on things I don’t like or find difficult, I am focusing on things I can do and thanking God for everything.  I realised how much I was taking for granted like getting up in the morning, being able to bath and dress myself without any difficulty. I had an appointment at the Breast clinic today Thursday, 21 February to see the Breast nur...

I had my surgery on 15th of February. It was a long day, which started at 6:45 am.  I got to the treatment Center at 6:45 am and was checking at the reception at 7:15 am. Titi and Ambreem drove me there and stayed with me until I was checked in. It was good to have company and someone to talk to. Emotionally I was calm because I was strong spiritually. I was not trying to control anything, I had handed everything over to God and let him be in control. He was in the driving seat and I was along for the ride. Knowing God was with me and in control was the reason I was so calm and not worried.  At 10 am I had to go to the breast clinic to get a wire put in my right Breast. The procedure was for about 30 minutes. I walked back to the treatment center. I think I sat down for over two hours before I was taken to the theatre at 12:20. Everyone was really nice and I got a chance to listen to Andrea Bocelli while I was going under. I came to at about 4:30 pm and everything went well. I...

I went in for my appointment at the breast clinic on Thursday 31 January to get the results of the second MRI scan and biopsy. Well, the doctor confirmed it was breast cancer because the primary source is the Breast. I will need to undergo surgery to remove the tumour in the breast and also some of my lymph nodes since it was infected.  I wasn’t expecting this even though I have been going through all these test it was still not real. I was hoping and believing the doctors will say it was all a mistake. This was not the report I was expecting because I was believing and trusting everything will be fine. I was hoping and believing nothing will be found. This is the report of the doctors and I will not fear it because I will only believe the report of the Lord which says I am healed, so I know I am healed. I will not fear nor be afraid of bad report because my faith is strong, my heart is confident and I am trusting in the Lord. Psalm 112: 7 In all is there still is cause to praise a...

Sometimes I tightly wrap my hand around things that will inevitably fade into dust, forgetting that my life belongs to the Lord, to begin and end as He ordains. He will be faithful to accomplish the plan he has for me. “The Lord will work out his plans for my life— for your faithful love, O Lord, endures forever. Don’t abandon me, for you made me. Psalms 138:8 NLT My life cannot be cut short before He allows. Although it may be hard to relinquish the illusion of control, once I do, I can begin to understand the reality of his protection. My life is not my own, it belongs to God and I can’t control it nor can I control what happens. I am confident that my Lord is with me, He is watching over me, He is protecting me, He provides for me, and He directs my path. And because God is with me in all I do I will not be afraid, I will not be moved and I will continue to trust because I know God never makes a mistake.

16th January was my first day back at work after a short break. It was good to be back and to be busy again but I had to go in for another appointment. I wish my first day back was like another normal day but the appointment was a reminder that my journey is different now. I arrived at the Breast clinic at 10:45AM for my 11:00AM appointment with Aunty Remi. The appointment was for ultrasound and biopsy on both breast as they are still trying to find primary source. This is the second time I will undergo this painful procedure but I was very glad someone was with me this time because I was on my own at the first biopsy and felt alone. I felt like a paint canvas because during the ultrasound because the radiologist marked areas of my breast with a marker. It was very funny and hilarious. The biopsy was longer than the first time and very painful. Samples were taken from both breast and a marker, a small metal clip was placed in the left breast where the biopsy samples were taken. This wa...

Today Thursday, 10 January 2019 at 9:30, I have to go in to get the results of the test. I plan to take my friend Sharon with me because I needed the support of someone. This could be a cruciakl day and I am glad I will not be alone. It was not the news I was expecting to hear but I know God is in control. The CT scan and MRI scan were not conclusive so they are still not sure of where the source of the cancer is. The only thing the MRI scan showed was that there were two at spot, one on each breast and they need to do a biopsy to see if it is cancer. Until this is determined, they will not know the course of treatment I need to undergo. As a result,  I have to go in for another CT scan on Monday 14th January at 11:00AM and another biopsy on Wednesday 16th of January at 14:15 PM. Oh joy, I was not happy, why was it proving difficult to find the primary source. More test, I hate test. I was a bit disappointed and emotional after the appointment. I cried because I wanted answers and ...

 I came across this song and the lyrics reminded me that God is with me and he will take me through this battle Thank God for Tasha Cobbs Leonard You know my name Oh how you comfort me Oh how you counsel me It still amazes me that I am your own Oh how you walk with me Oh how you talk with me Oh how you tell me that I am your own God you know me so I trust you with my life No fire can burn me No battle can turn me No mountain can stop me Cause you hold my hand I am walking in your victory cause your power is within me No giant can defeat me because you always hold my hand I don’t have to be afraid because you hold my hand ©Tasha Cobbs Leonard

My child, I have power and authority over your path to wellness. I have many ways to heal, but My methods and timing are not always predictable. I can heal through physicians, surgeons, renewed mindsets, common sense, or a direct touch from My Spirit. However healing comes, it’s never up to you to decide how or when. I alone am the One who heals. I give you wise physicians that prescribe medications to destroy mutated cells, kill harmful organisms, and regulate body systems. My surgeons remove diseased tissues and repair defective organs. At anytime, I can bypass these natural methods and heal you supernaturally through the power of My Spirit. However you receive healing, there is no second class outcome. Being healed miraculously is no more spiritual than being healed medically. Healing by any method is a blessing from Me, the God who heals. Child, you are dependent on Me for your every breath. Never let your trust move subtly to the doctors, their drugs, or your own strength instead ...

Another day and another appointment today is an MRI appointment I went to church and taught the kids in Discovery Kids. This helped me take my mind of things, it helped me feel normal and not like someone with something looming on my mind. I had to let Bev know what was going on because I knew I will be off Discovery Kids for a while. Sharon went with me and it was great to have company. The procedure was for almost an hour. The experience was out of this world - noisy and too much vibration. I was happy when it was all over. To be honest, I am a bit apprehensive and anxious at each appointment but I choose to not let fear of the unknown paralyse me or worry as I wait for the result. My God is in control regardless, I will not be troubled or afraid for I have the wonderful gift from God - His promises and peace which is my weapon against worry and fear. His peace is completely different than the world’s peace. The world’s peace is tied to circumstances, but God’s peace is eternal and f...

I am feeling down and worried today, But I decided to snap out of it and focus on God's will for me and His promises.  My will! My will for you my daughter is a healthy body. A healthy body is a reflection of My goodness and My abundant love for you. I grieve over your brokenness, and I want you to be completely whole. Sickness and death were never part of My original plan. I created and called My creation good. When sin and sickness entered the world, My beautiful creation fell into decay. But I came to restore everything the enemy stole from you! I came to destroy the works of the devil and heal your diseases by the stripes on My back.

Only by trusting in what I did for you on the cross will you be whole and perfect in My sight. It is only by My grace that you receive My free gift, an eternal home where sorrow and mourning will disappear. You have a priceless inheritance that can never be destroyed. My child, when they whipped Me, you were healed. When I dragged the cross up the hill to Calvary, I carried the weight of your cancer on My back. When they nailed Me to the cross, I defeated your cancer and carried it with Me to the grave. I died to save the world, but I would have done it just for you. Lord, thank you that my faith alone makes me righteous in Your sight! My life is no longer mortal and temporal, but eternal and forever. The enemy and his cancer cannot touch my soul or take away my life in you. You conquered him at Calvary and took away the sting of death. You died so I could live. Thank you that I am safe forever in your hands. “This gospel unveils a continual revelation of God’s righteousness—a perfect ...

My will! My will for you my daughter is a healthy body. A healthy body is a reflection of My goodness and My abundant love for you. I grieve over your brokenness, and I want you to be completely whole. Sickness and death were never part of My original plan. I created and called My creation good. When sin and sickness entered the world, My beautiful creation fell into decay. But I came to restore everything the enemy stole from you! I came to destroy the works of the devil and heal your diseases by the stripes on My back.

I cried today, don’t know why but I think it is related to me receiving another appointment letter from the hospital for a nuclear medicine body scan. I don’t know what that is and I don’t know why I’ve been asked to do this. This morning I feel so overwhelmed so Lord, please help me. At this point I have had a mammogram and biopsy two times, so I am sick and tired of test. I just want things to start moving as I am determined to face this and be brave. You said I am healed and I believe that. I am already healed and I am just waiting for the physical manifestation of my healing 3 John 1:2 - Beloved, I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your souls prosper I believe I am the righteousness of God and any situation that opposes God’s will for me has no choice but to obey and be obedient to God’s will for me. Cancer opposes God’s will for me so you Cancer you have no choice but to the obedient to God’s will for me which is I was made whole by the blood of Jes...