Living a life purpose

This week has been a tough week. I have been in so much pain and I have been feeling sorry for myself thinking of how things were before and how things are now. I just want things to go back to normal to go back to how things were before. I feel so helpless, I feel so useless I don’t know if I have been thinking my identity to the things I do my job this in-activeness is making me feel so sorry for myself. But I’ll lord is so good he knew exactly what I needed to hear and exactly what you wanted to say to me so this morning I read a verse in Psalms 27 Verse 14 “Here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Don’t give up; don’t be impatient; be entwined as one with the Lord. Be brave and courageous, and never lose hope. Yes, keep on waiting—for he will never disappoint you!” Psalms 27:14 TPT Temi my daughter, my beloved, do not give up, do not be impatient. Be entwined as one with me your Lord. Every detail of your life is continually woven together to fit into my perfect plan for your life....

Yesterday was not a good day for me. I was in so much pain and I was feeling sorry for myself. It was good to have Patience come round, just having someone to talk to really helped.  Today is another day and I choose to live this day with joy and thanksgiving. I refuse to feel sorry for myself or to focus on the pain. I am joint heir with Christ so that means I can claim every benefit and blessing Christ purchased for me at the cross. So today I choose peace, today I choose joy, today I choose to be grateful for all God has done for me. God I start today with you and I pray that your healing powers flow within me. I pray that you will remove every pain and ache in Jesus name. I refuse to let my mind wander to thoughts that are not from you. I choose to fill my mind with your words and with your promises. I choose to stay embraced in your loving arms.

This is Day 5 after surgery. I have not been able to write because I have been in so much pain. Yesterday was not a good day because I was in so much pain. I blame myself, I stopped taking ibuprofen because I was constipated so I’ve learned my lesson and back on ibuprofen. I believe today will be a better day. I am beginning to feel a bit like myself, a tired version of myself. I am trying to take things easy and not overdo it. A few things I don’t like in the recovery phase Tiredness, Dressing, Bathing I am not focusing on things I don’t like or find difficult, I am focusing on things I can do and thanking God for everything.  I am not focusing on things I don’t like or find difficult, I am focusing on things I can do and thanking God for everything.  I realised how much I was taking for granted like getting up in the morning, being able to bath and dress myself without any difficulty. I had an appointment at the Breast clinic today Thursday, 21 February to see the Breast nur...

I had my surgery on 15th of February. It was a long day, which started at 6:45 am.  I got to the treatment Center at 6:45 am and was checking at the reception at 7:15 am. Titi and Ambreem drove me there and stayed with me until I was checked in. It was good to have company and someone to talk to. Emotionally I was calm because I was strong spiritually. I was not trying to control anything, I had handed everything over to God and let him be in control. He was in the driving seat and I was along for the ride. Knowing God was with me and in control was the reason I was so calm and not worried.  At 10 am I had to go to the breast clinic to get a wire put in my right Breast. The procedure was for about 30 minutes. I walked back to the treatment center. I think I sat down for over two hours before I was taken to the theatre at 12:20. Everyone was really nice and I got a chance to listen to Andrea Bocelli while I was going under. I came to at about 4:30 pm and everything went well. I...

I went in for my appointment at the breast clinic on Thursday 31 January to get the results of the second MRI scan and biopsy. Well, the doctor confirmed it was breast cancer because the primary source is the Breast. I will need to undergo surgery to remove the tumour in the breast and also some of my lymph nodes since it was infected.  I wasn’t expecting this even though I have been going through all these test it was still not real. I was hoping and believing the doctors will say it was all a mistake. This was not the report I was expecting because I was believing and trusting everything will be fine. I was hoping and believing nothing will be found. This is the report of the doctors and I will not fear it because I will only believe the report of the Lord which says I am healed, so I know I am healed. I will not fear nor be afraid of bad report because my faith is strong, my heart is confident and I am trusting in the Lord. Psalm 112: 7 In all is there still is cause to praise a...